Thursday, March 3, 2011
Finding my groove again
For some reason I can't seem to get back into the groove. The past month has been really busy with sick kids to boot. Last week, as you may have read, was busy with a million half term things. Now I have my mornings free to play with X and work when he naps. The nanny arrives in the afternoon and I go to work. I break for dinner, bath, story time and bed, then I'm back to work as I keep New York hours - which happen to be five hours behind London.
It hasn't been a problem before but I can't snap back into it. I still do it, just doesn't feel like it's flowing right now. I juggle a lot of things with my job and I work in just about all my spare time (if there is such a thing). But because I maintain a social life as best I can, most people here don't see it. Which became apparent recently.
The other day a new acquaintance asked me if I was going to a women's club function this week (tonight in fact). I said I had to work (and I do, I have conference calls until 10pm). She looked at me sideways and said, "You work?" We went through the whole, "What do you do" thing. Then she said, "Can't you take the night off? It's not like it's real work. You work from home." Now I don't know this woman well at all and I'm certain she didn't mean to insult me so I just smiled, said, "Well, it sure feels like real work," and got out of the conversation and the store post haste.
Just because I don't dress in a suit, hop on the tube and spend 10 hours a day in an office doesn't mean I don't work. And it doesn't mean what I do isn't real - my clients would beg to differ. I take great pride in what I do and I actually love it. But I was still a little taken aback. I'll get over it.
It was my decision to keep my job, work from home and raise my kids as a part time SAHM. I'm determined to get my groove back soon. And I'll maintain this until both kids are in school. Then I might retire!